Sunday, April 21, 2019

Fall in the pit again

The problem of surviving in the old age is Old age itself
The people around you have no idea of old age and the problems you face
People try deferent methods for survival and every method is trial and error or some as taking some new medicines
You may find some quick relief initially but the side effects are terrible
The biggest problem is mood swings
since nobody is there to observe you nobody understands and you get no help and get hardship instead
you cannot open your mouth nor you can tell your problems
Nobody wants to hear ok fair I am not coming to anybody for relief
But is it a crime to except a fair treatment as per your wish or imagination
Opening your mouth generates quick reactions
The toughest situation is that neither you can live nor suicide
since suicide is not in your list and your wish is to fight old age and survive happily
But it needs little care and some positive vibes from anybody around you
They can make you or destroy you
a Kind word in the morning can make the day and an unkind word can destroy the day
If there somebody is observing you and your moods you are the luckiest person
If the people or a person near you except you to behave the way they think You had it
No way
It is the toughest thing to survive
The more you think not to bother anybody and survive the more you are falling in the pit
It is not anybody's fault Because nobody has the previous experience of the situation
 A small silly thing can bother you the most but nobody around you can understand and save you from that situation that is the biggest problem
The standards have changed The tough problem for others is silly for you and the tough problem for you is silly for others
Nobody can understand this
Getting your mood off is offensive and a criminal offence
Nobody understands the mood off is not self-created but the first victim is the person himself whose mood is off
But he will be punished for the same
Any word counts so you have to take care while opening your mouth which is not at all possible
so if your mood is off you make enemies out of friends
Either way, you lose
Nobody can save you
If you open your mouth your words will be offensive
If you keep mum your silence will be offensive

Since say the last 25th I am struggling to survive the mood swings
But I have nobody around to observe this and help me I myself struggling to control me and my actions
Not a single word from around to help me I have no proper sleep at night and I sleep at odd times Nothing makes me happy
I am struggling
I feel self-pity because i have nobody around me to understand my plight
everybody expects a standard behaviour
I only know my plight
Every day is a new day and new feelings
There is nobody to hear me nor understand my plight
I cannot change the behaviour pattern I do not get any exemption
I wish I had equipment connected to my brain and people can see my plight on its monitor screen so that they can understand me
anyway after this post I got some relief

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